Worldliness

by elen felix
(Philippines)

I became a Christian last 1998. It was a gradual change of heart. I used to be a snobbish, quiet, unconcerned woman who wanted to live a comfortable life like how I was wen I was still single.

When i got married, my life became a new one--all the discomforts were in me. As a result, i developed anxiety and depression as products of my panic attack that resulted from the discomfort of my life. I couldn't adjust to this situation. It was a horrible life.

Until my children studied in a Christian school where I became a Christian. Gradually I was recovering. Yet, it was only a half-hearted submission because of the loss of focus due to these mental illnesses. I didn't grow for the 13 years of being a Christian. But at least, some not-good characteristics of mine had changed into positive ones. I was at least contented with these changes.

Something happened that made me transferred to another Christian church. There, I was active and still now, though some factors hinder my growth. But I can see the better me as a spiritual person; things that I didn't do in my former church, i do now, and it satisfies me, with the hope and faith that God is still guiding me onto my right path while journeying to His promised land--heaven.