Prayer Request: Employment Situation

by Tammy
(Texas)

Greetings everyone. I moved to Texas from Ohio to start a new job back in October. I left my previous position because of the politics and because I didn't get a cost of living raise even though I had excellent performance evaluations and I was there 6 1/2 years (not just me--lots of people who were there longer). Anyway, the job hasn't worked out very well. Not only was it not a good fit but my supervisor feels I'm incompentent (he won't answer some of the questions I had, he won't give me additional training, and he won't let me do some of the things I was hired to do then gets upset because he's doing my work for me--which is what I don't want, I want to do what I'm supposed to but he says it's easier for him to do it himself). I started looking for a new position in February since I'm not really getting along with my boss and since the position might well not be a good fit for me. He hasn't been a good mentor and I know other people have had problems with him as well.

Anyway, my evaluation is tomorrow at 3:00pm Central Time (Wednesday, May 28th) and my supervisor says it will be a bad one. I don't know if I'll be fired then or if I'll have some time to "straighten up."

All I know is I need prayer for this really rough time. I had an interview in Iowa last week (I really liked it there so hopefully that will come through) and I have a phone interview for a position in Kansas on Thursday afternoon.

My family is in North Carolina (I applied for a couple of jobs in that area) and I really miss them. My mom and brother are born-again Christians (my dad attends church and Sunday School with my mom and he supports her in that).

Because things haven't been well with between my supervisor and myself, my parents say I should talk to HR or consult an attorney or the EEOC. I'm really confused as to what to do.

I really feel far away from God right now. I'm 42, single, and a breast cancer survivor and I'm very much alone. If I become unemployed I wouldn't be able to afford my meds (depression, anxiety, ADD, tamoxifen) plus I have a debt--I spent a fortune moving here. I'm scared and alone.

I need prayer that I'll survive the "very bad" performance evaluation (my boss's words) and that I'll find employment that's right for me (and where God wants me to be). I need prayer to know how I should respond to my evaluation and to cope with the situation I'm in right now. I feel guilty for being very sad and angry about the situation and I feel like a bad person for not being thankful for having a job in Ohio (even if the morale was bad at my place of employment). I also feel selfish for asking for prayer but I feel really lost and discouraged. I've been crying since I got home and can't really focus on anything at the moment.

Thank you so much for your prayers and God bless.