My son and his mother

by perry
(Vancouver,wa,usa)

I have not been with my son's mother for almost 4 years, and ever so often she becomes angry with me and ignores my communications even when asking about our son. I never really know why other than she brings up past failures again and again. I have apologized, told her I am only trying to be a friend and a dad, but as of now she wont answer, she makes no effort to keep me in his life, and that in turn sets me into a worrisome,stressed,and hurtful state. I pray for help with her and to be an active part of my sons life and try to give it to God, though I do continue to hurt about it, I guess my question is what do I do? for some time now I hurt over this and can never hold unto joy, even when other areas of my life are blessed and going well. I'm tired, and just want to raise my son too. it feels like the answer to my prayers over this is answered No.What do I do??