Lord forgive me

pls pls forgive me that i been bad person.i know u cry looking at me doing those bad things and hurt people who understand and trying to help me.i accept ur punishment lord.lord i know ur there always pld help my family,help my mum my brothers and sister to have peace of mind,touch there heart lord and remind them that life is important.i feel so pain looking from there situation lord,i tried my best to make people happy around me even deep inside my heart im not happy for what im doing.lord forgive me i really ask forgiveness.im sorry for those people who care that i hurt so much,and i always thank and pray to bless them more in life even do i never seen them.im do things bad online to talk friends just to get help to people who care lord because im happy to see my family that they are ok.but this things always remind me that it is not right to fool someone just to help them.but i have no grade lord i have no experience.im tired and very much guilty for doing this thing but because of hard time i cant take my family and children suffering.today my mum share lots of problem i wanted to help but im so down now.i love my family lorn i wish that i can find in good way to have 1000$ to give all to my mama and she can start sale fruits side walk.pls lord help me help and guide my family.for give them forgive me lord i need u lord im so depress i want them to be happy.every night my family sleep without food to eat my mum tells me they are sleeping angry at night.lord pls bless us i need ur guidance and help lord.im so sorry that i am bad forgive me for my mistakes.i really dont know what to do lord im so tired.my father left us my sisters and brother stop there studies