God changed my very hearts desires.

by Shonna
(Tennessee)

Well, I don't exactly know where to start. I guess I could start by saying that I am only writing this because I remember a time when I found myself calling out to God begging him to help me and show me other people who had been delivered from what bound my spirit so. I am writing my testimony to all the other people out there who feel there is no way out of sin. I am a 19 year old female now, but my story begins when I was about 12 years old. I remember starting to look at other women with lust, and I hated it. I didn't truly understand what was happening to me. I spent countless nights crying in my room wandering why I felt this way. I always liked boys too, but as time progressed I became so wrapped up in lust with women that I lost what I once felt towards boys. When I turned 16 I met my downfall, or so the devil thought. She was my everything really. I was so in love, or so I thought. I would have done anything for her. Literally. I had been in love with her for a year before she and I started going out. But, one day at a revival, my whole life was turned upside down. I was standing in a big crowd and this preacher fascinated me. I had fasted that day and tried laying some of my wicked ways aside for as long as I could because in my heart I truly wanted God, but I was so bound I couldn't. But, he pointed me out and looked at me as if he seen my whole life flash before his eyes and he prophesied to me that God has a great work for me and that my music ministry and other ministry would be greater than any in my family that have come before me. The last thing he said to me caught my attention greatly. He told me while I was standing there crying, he said: "There is a MAN for you. God has a MAN for you. You have to wait and be patient." I was like....!!!!! really???!! at the time I was still with that girl so I couldn't see myself leaving her without God helping me STRONGLY helping me. Within the next night or so I was filled with the holyghost. I broke up with this girl twice, but I always came crawling back begging for her to stay with me, but the third time she broke up with me. Ever since then she has been with the same guy. What is odd is I asked God to take her cause I couldn't leave her and stay gone. Jesus done the dirty work. I've been in a process ever since then with God. He's brought me so far. I was so gay. Not the noticeable type, but the kind that truly and honestly loved the same sex and wasn't playing around about it. I put my whole heart in my relationships. I am now out of highschool and yes I have a boyfriend lol he's a terrific guy. God has transformed me from a liar, lesbian, drunkard to a God loving, testifying, bible reading, tongue talking, pentecostal woman of God. What is promised to one can be given to all.